Yesterday, we looked at how we as women desire security in our lives and in our relationships so desperately.  But we often look for it in all the wrong places instead of finding our security in Christ alone.

I believe that the deep roots of a woman’s insecurity in her relationships,”low self esteem,” desire to control and all other sin can be found in:

  • her lack of proper understanding of who God is
  • her lack of proper understanding of herself in relationship to God (PRIDE)
  • unbelief in the sovereign, holy, loving, righteous, omnipotent God of the Bible
  • an attempt to replace Christ as Lord of her life with something else – an idol (self, a man, marriage, wealth, beauty, thinness, etc.)
  • the sinful nature being in control instead of God’s Spirit being in control.  Either she has not received Jesus Christ as Savior and as literal LORD of her life, or she has sinned against God, grieving His Spirit, and does not have His Spirit empowering her right now – until she repents of her sin and begins to abide in Christ again.

THE FRUIT OF MY LIFE TELLS ME PLAINLY IF MY SINFUL NATURE IS IN CONTROL OR IF GOD’S SPIRIT IS IN CONTROL

16 So I say, walk by the Spirit, and you will not gratify the desires of the flesh. 17 For the flesh desires what is contrary to the Spirit, and the Spirit what is contrary to the flesh. They are in conflict with each other, so that you are not to do whatever you want. 18 But if you are led by the Spirit, you are not under the law.

19 The acts of the flesh are obvious: sexual immoralityimpurity and debauchery (drinking alcohol to excess)20 idolatry and witchcraft (use of mind altering substances); hatred, discord, jealousy, fits of rage, selfish ambition, dissensions, factions 21 and envy; drunkenness, orgies, and the like. I warn you, as I did before, that those who live like this will not inherit the kingdom of God.

22 But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23 gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law. 24 Those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires. 25 Since we live by the Spirit, let us keep in step with the Spirit. 26 Let us not become conceited, provoking and envying each other.  Galatians 5

I used to think, well, I don’t participate in orgies or witchcraft.  And I don’t bow down to an idol.  I don’t drink alcohol.  I don’t commit adultery.  So – I am obviously not controlled by the sinful nature.  But I glossed over the fact that I was unforgiving, bitter, resentful, jealous, selfish and a huge idolator.  If I have even ONE of the things on the sinful nature list – that is the sinful nature in control, not God’s Spirit.

The fruit of the Spirit is one fruit.  ALL of these 9 qualities will be in my life in increasing abundance as God makes me more and more like Jesus.  If I am not living in His Spirit and experiencing all of this fruit on a regular, daily basis – I have a HUGE PROBLEM.  I either don’t have a relationship with Christ, or I have sinned against Him and grieved His Spirit.  Either way, I need to admit my sin, turn from it, and turn with all my heart to God – accepting His death in my place on my behalf to appease God’s wrath against me for my sin – by faith.  I must be willing to obey Him and submit myself wholly to Him in everything.  Willing to call Him my LORD and Master.  I cannot obey Him until He empowers me with His Spirit.  I cannot earn favor with God.  It is ALL Him.  He provides the way through Christ.  He gives me the faith to come to Him, He empowers me to grow in Him and live for Him.

UNDERSTANDING WHO GOD IS  AND WHO WE ARE WITHOUT HIM – IS CRITICAL

Sometimes we try to make God over in our own image.  We imagine that He is like our earthly father.  Or we have a very small, impotent, weak picture of Him because we learned not to trust Him but to trust self.  That is what I did.  I misunderstood some things that happened when I was 5-8 years old, around the same time I accepted Christ as my Savior and Lord, and from that childish misunderstanding, I thought I learned that I was WAY more responsible for other people, situations, circumstances and, really, the whole world – than I actually am.  I truly believed it was my job to make everyone’s lives turn out right.  That is TOO MUCH PRESSURE!  I can remember crying when I was about 8-9 years old every night at bedtime because there were people starving around the world and I was not giving them food.  I really believed I was sovereign.  No one corrected my gaping and tragic misunderstanding  – or I didn’t understand it if they tried to – and I continued on with this belief into adulthood that I was responsible for everyone and everything.  I didn’t see where my responsibilities ended and God’s began.

God is God.  I am NOT.

I believe that when we put ourselves in the place of God in our lives (idolizing self), we think we should be able to be perfect, and when we discover we cannot be perfect, that can definitely lead to “low self esteem.”  We see we are not “good enough.”

Or if we believe we can actually be  “good enough” to please God in our own strength, and think that if we just work hard enough, we can earn God’s love and heaven – we find that it is impossible.

Another way we end up with low self esteem is that we make idols of beauty or of men – and when those things don’t fulfill us and provide the security and contentment we long for, we are devastated.

Sometimes we expect our men to idolize US – and when we detect that they could possibly even be conscious that there are other women on the planet – we may feel sinful jealousy.

There is a jealousy that is not sinful.  If our man is flirting with other women or cheating on us – we are being wronged if we are in an exclusive relationship.

UNBELIEF IN GOD AND TRUST IN SELF INSTEAD OF GOD IS HUGE SIN AND LEADS TO MANY OTHER SINS

That is why I was disrespectful towards my husband.  I had myself in the place of God – and I expected my husband to honor me as god, too!  Not consciously.  but this is how I lived.  I expected him to submit to me – I would NEVER have said that – but that is really what I expected.  “He should see I am right, and he is wrong, and he should do what I know is best.  I’m always right.  I know better than he does.  I’m a better leader than he is.  I know God’s will and he doesn’t.  I know better than everyone.”  YIKES!  If pride is measurable – mine was off the charts!

This is also why I tried to be in control.  If I put myself in the place of God – and I believe I am sovereign and responsible for everything to turn out “right” then I have to make things happen my way or they will all be “a mess.”  In my mind, it ALL hinged totally on me. So, I believed it was my responsibility and duty to make sure that things were done my way.  I was offended when other people resisted me.  After all, I am “doing God’s will.”  But what I was really doing, and this is terrifying, was trusting self and demanding that others worship and serve me.   Keep in mind, I was NEVER consciously saying these things to myself.   All the time believing I was trusting God and being the best Christian wife ever.

I developed and nurtured this false image of God being tiny and not very powerful and this HUGE image of myself being sovereign over my own life and over the lives of everyone around me.  I didn’t consciously think that way – but that is how I lived and what POWERFULLY motivated my thoughts and behavior.

I had it all backwards!

GOD is huge, powerful, omnipotent, omnipresent, sovereign over all the universe, wise, loving, just, holy, righteous and to be highly exalted.

I am NOT those things!

I am small, impotent, weak, full of sin and depravity, incapable of anything good on my own, foolish, unloving, prideful, totally unable to control circumstances or other people and I am but dust.  

  •  As it is written:

“There is no one righteous, not even one;

11     there is no one who understands;

    there is no one who seeks God.

12 All have turned away,

    they have together become worthless;

there is no one who does good,

    not even one.”[b]

13 “Their throats are open graves;

    their tongues practice deceit.”[c]

“The poison of vipers is on their lips.”[d]

14     “Their mouths are full of cursing and bitterness.”[e]

15 “Their feet are swift to shed blood;

16     ruin and misery mark their ways,

17 and the way of peace they do not know.”[f]

18  “There is no fear of God before their eyes.”[g]  Romans 3

This is me, a HUGE sinner – with ZERO capacity to do good or to “earn favor” with God.

  • All of us have become like one who is unclean,

    and all our righteous acts are like filthy rags;
we all shrivel up like a leaf,
    and like the wind our sins sweep us away. Isaiah 64:6

This verse, literally translated, means “filthy, bloody menstrual rags” – which were not only nasty and gross, but were considered “unclean” by the Jews because anything and anyone who touched a menstruating woman in the Old Testament Law times would have become “unclean” and would not be able to participate in temple worship for a certain number of days.

That is what our righteousness, our “good works” on our own look like to God.

Kind of  puts things in perspective, doesn’t it?

  • I had to exalt God about a million notches and bring myself WAY, WAY, WAY down in humility for the first time in my life.

From this proper understanding of myself and God.  I can begin to build my true identity as a woman.

There is no need for me to freak out about why my man or any other person on the planet is doing if I am totally secure in Christ.  If my contentment, strength, identity, power, purpose, peace and joy is 100% wrapped up in Jesus – I can have a peaceful, gentle spirit that does what is right and does not give way to hysterical fear.  My trust is in my sovereign Lord.  His perfect love has driven out all of my fears – every single one of them.  I don’t have to try to make things work out or force my way. I rest in God’s sovereignty and live in His supernatural peace by His power working in me.  It is not my power – it HAS to be His alone.  I know that life is no longer about what I want, it is about God’s will and His purpose and His glory now.  I trust Him to use all things for my ultimate good and His ultimate glory.  So I am unshakable in my human relationships.  I no longer need the praise and approval of people.  My heart is totally devoted to Christ and I want to please and obey Him no matter what the cost.  No one can separate me from the love of Christ.

WHO CHRIST IS:

You may have a section in your Bible at the back that talks about the identity of Christ and of God.  That can be really helpful.

You can also search at www.desiringgod.org for some excellent articles by John Piper about who God is, and who Jesus is.

You can check out David Platt’s church and look at sermons, or look up his sermons on Youtube about Christ to watch.

You can read God’s Word – especially the gospels and New Testament letters – to see who God is.  But the Old Testament is also VERY rich in passages that describe the majesty, might, power, wisdom, royalty and awesomeness of God.  Be in His Word every day.  Hunger for Him.  Thirst for Him.  If you don’t have a huge desire to know Him more, ask Him to convict you of every sin that is keeping you separated from Him and be willing to repent (turn away from) all of that ungodliness and seek Him with all your heart, mind, soul and strength!

The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom.  Proverbs 1:7

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