Today’s post is a guest post by a precious sister in Christ, Nikki. She is from Trinidad and Tobago in the Caribbean. I’m so thankful for her willingness to share a bit of her story. I believe it may be a blessing to many other women:
I’m sharing with you an account of how I completely lost my faith in God by praying for my family. I was facing some severe family problems and began to pray in earnest.
Old Approach to Prayer
Below is list of the advice I followed during that period of my life:
- I sprinkled my entire house and all of my possessions with holy water and blessed salt.
- I said dozens of novenas (Note: a novena is a Catholic tradition of saying a prayer every day for 9 days). I bought a book of novena prayers and each one said at the bottom “This is a very powerful novena that has never been known to fail.” I said novena after novena expecting and hoping for some change and things only got worse and worse.
- I was told to buy a particular type of cross and get it blessed by a particular monk and place it over the front door of my home.
- I went to church more than once a week, expecting that God would be obligated to obey me because of that.
Everyone I went to for advice suggested a different prayer or ritual. No one advised me to check my own heart and clear it of any pride, anger, unforgiveness, selfishness or idols. The more I prayed and performed these gimmicks, the worse things in my family got and I ended up completely heartbroken, bitter and angry at God. I hated God and wanted nothing to do with him for almost 10 years…until I had a stranger approach me on a beach and led me to pray and give my life to Christ.
When I started to rebuild my relationship with Christ, I prayed for my family very hesitantly and with a lot of fear. I was terrified of getting my heart broken again. I wanted more than anything to preserve my relationship with God first and foremost, regardless of how other aspects of my life were going.
Losing your faith in God through following gimmicks is not isolated among Catholics. I know many Protestants who lost their faith in God through gimmicks like sending “seed money” to particular TV-evangelists or pastor, by “naming and claiming” things that they want, or by writing down a list of the things that they want and putting it in the centre of their Bibles.
Red Flags for Prayer
Because of my horrific experience, I would like you all to be aware of these red flags that you may be praying in the wrong way:
- Do you want your prayer request more than you want God?If you do, that is idolatry. Your idols will always destroy you spiritually, mentally, emotionally and even physically. So please work daily to identify anyidolsin your heart and tear them down. Don’t even allow your husband or children to be on the throne of your heart. Set Jesus alone on the throne of your heart.
- Do you trust the words of the prayer itself or the rituals you are participating in more than you trust God?No prayer is powerful and fail-proof. Only God is powerful. No prayer should be trusted. Only God deserves your trust. Keep that in mind when you are praying. (From Peaceful Wife, we pray to have communication with the Lord and to present our needs and requests before Him. Prayers should not be looked upon as “spells.”)
- Are you hanging on to any anger, unforgiveness, revenge or hatred?God is more concerned with the condition of your heart than whatever prayer you are saying. He will not answer our prayers if we are harbouring sinful anger and hatred in our hearts. (Ps. 66:18)
- Are you ignoring your God-given role?Husbands are advised to fulfil their role to love their wives so that nothing will hinder their prayers (1 Peter 3:7). Similarly, children should fulfill their role to honour their parents and married women should fulfill their role to respect their husbandsso that nothing can hinder their prayers.
- Are you attempting to manipulate or force God to do what you are asking Him to do?God is not a genie in a bottle who submits to us. We are meant to submit to Him. If we treat God like some sort of cosmic Genie and think that if we do/say the “right words,” He will be forced to obey us and give us what we want, we are praying with very sinful motives.
- Are you praying for others in an attempt to control themor force them to change their ways to suit you? God does not allow us to have ultimate control and authority over anyone. Only He is sovereign. (From Peaceful Wife – even He doesn’t force people to obey Him, but gives people free will.)
Green Flags for Prayer
I have learned a lot about prayer and God over the past few years and I would like to share with you some green flags that prove that you are praying in the right way:
- Humilitybefore God. (Phil 2: 5-11)
- Love, mercy and forgivenesstowards others. (Mark 11:25)
- The understanding that God is in charge, not you. (Prov 19:21)
- Denying yourself and following Christ. (Luke 9:23)
- Wanting God’s will above your own.(Luke 22:42)
- Faith that God loves you and will do what is ultimately best for you. (Rom 8:28)
- The understanding that God uses our trials to help us grow in spiritual maturityand that we need to be willing to endure hardships and difficulties to grow. (Rom 5:3-4,James 1:2-4)
- Depending on the Holy Spirit to move and change people rather than me trying to take the place of the Holy Spiritor force my way. God does not force Himself on anyone. He will never take away anyone’s free will. If you are praying for someone, God will work on that person’s heart and invite that person to Him, but will never force that person to change (John 16:13-14). When praying for others, hold the outcome very looselybecause their response to the movement of the Holy Spirit in their hearts is ultimately up to them.
If we pray in this way, we will be standing on the Solid Rock and we will have hope and joy even in the midst of great trials, whether God gives us what we want or not.
Trusting God in Trials
Right now, I am facing trials of many kinds, but rather than sinking into a pit of despair, hopelessness, and heartache, I am at peace and growing in my faith because I know that God loves me and is in charge of everything.
I actually focus 95% of my time with God on reading the Bible and discovering the truth and beauty of God’s Word and only about 5% of my time praying for specific outcomes for myself, my marriage and my family. My primary focus is on loving Jesus and building my relationship with Him, and not on my circumstances.
Habukkuk 3:17–19 sums up what our attitude should be:
Though the fig tree does not bud
and there are no grapes on the vines,
though the olive crop fails
and the fields produce no food,
though there are no sheep in the pen
and no cattle in the stalls,
yet I will rejoice in the Lord,
I will be joyful in God my Savior.
The Sovereign Lord is my strength;
he makes my feet like the feet of a deer,
he enables me to tread on the heights.
I’m sure that Habukkuk would have wanted the fig trees to bud, the fields to produce ample food, and many strong, healthy animals in his land. He didn’t have any of those things, but his love for God lifted his spirits, gave him strength, and filled him with joy.
Praying with Humility:
And Jesus went with them. When he was not far from the house, the centurion sent friends, saying to him, “Lord, do not trouble yourself, for I am not worthy to have you come under my roof.Therefore I did not presume to come to you. But say the word, and let my servant be healed.” Luke 7:6-7
I hope that you can all learn from my story of misplaced hope and my discovery of what prayer is really about. I really would love all of us to have great relationships with Christ and rejoice together in heaven, which will be the ultimate prayer-fest!
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